Soul Dose

I need need need to get my pictures into the computer, I wanna start writing about my ceremony and I've seen beautiful pictures in my album that I wanna include, ok now I have to trick daddy into getting me a scanner or something... Last time I checked he couldn't resist my smile and head tilt, hopefully I still have my magic.

See that shell around my neck? You'd never guess how I got it so I'm  gonna tell you...... I had asked to be taken to the beach for a dip, I wanted to feel the water around me and feel the sea breeze. So Mom Ndu, Daddy and my uncle Mdu all took me. We got to Durban and didn't know how to do it, the water was right there in front of us, I was on mom's back and they were scared they'd drown me by mistake. But the water was calling, annd I had been stuck in the house for too long, I needed to do  something to show me I'm still alive.

So mom put a towel on the sand and lay me down, she tested the water (cold as always) and said lets dip her three times, by three I mean they were gonna put me and rest, then put me and rest, then put me and go home (with me of course, ha ha ha).

Mom held my top part, my uncle held  my bottom part and they carried me to the water, I was scared shitless and kept trying to say please don't drop me but remember I was already speechless. We got to the water and they lowered me in, water surrounded me and I cried, but they dippped me again and I got used to it. A few more dips and it was lights out, I fainted and they caried me to the towel, they gave me some air, a lifeguard gave me an oxygen mask and I woke up. We stayed on that towel for a few minutes and of course during those minutes people kept stopping by when I started with the shaking and fainting and throwin up and coughing, which all led to the waking up... One lady even prayed for me.

We tried it again for the second time, this time I didn't cry but I did faint, so embarrassing... On the third try they carried me to the water like the first two, they dipped me and mom put me on her back and went to the car, where she helped me breath and cleaned me up... Oh by the way daddy had ran, he was afraid of sea water and looked from a distance.

When mom was cleaning me up she noticed I was clutching something in my hand, she asked me what was it and I told her I didn't know. After opening my hand we found that shell, it was the most unbelievable thing because there were no visible shells at the beach that day and this was a very very hard shell, it was beautiful and it was in my hand, I didn't remember picking it up, mom didn't know how I ended up with a shell when there weren't any visible ones.... When we got home I took a phone and wrote that I wanted to keep it, my family ended up calling it my gift from the sea. I believed it was my reminder and my hope.

Dad made a hole, put a string and I wore it nicely around my neck, I don't wear it anymore but I still have it in my drawer as a reminder that there is unexpected beauty in this world.