Soul Dose

I'm not feeling good these days, I'm having breathing problems and a headache that just won't quit. Maybe I think too much, maybe I stress too much and maybe, just maybe I need a vacation.... Ha ha ha I can imagine what my folks would say if I mentioned it, my brother would have non of that. But on a more serious note, these days aren't treating me very well, I'm up all hours and I've seen a few doctors but they give me your usual injection that stings my arm and irritates me (II'm not a fan of injectioons)... I don't blame them, I don't blame anybody but this illness that is still ruling my life after all these years.

All this time I've been spending thinking about my past before the illness even started. Though I'm not ready to blog about my childhood I am gonna write a bit here and there, after all my mom did tell me that a writen word is far stronger and healing than a spoken word, please don't be surprised if I drag you back to the time when I was a mini me... Once I'm ready to deal with that part of my life I will write about it. Today I'd like to tell you about my fears.

• I'm terrified of thunderstorms, one sounds and I ask somebody to stay with me because it really scares me. Just look at that thing, it's no joke.

• Ah let me see, oh I'm also not a spider person, I've seen television programs saying most spiders are harmless but for me a spider is a spider is a spider, I'm even scared of those tall ones with skinny legs that everyone brushes aside wiithout any thought.

• Losing my mother... She has been a very strong woman and an example for me since I was born, but now she gets sick all the time and I'm not ready to see her getting weaker, she's superwoman to me and I'd like her to stay that way forever. Below is her picture taken after her 6 months stay in hospital, she went straight to work.
  

That's it, those are the only things I'm afraid of.. Ok I'm not saying I'm some die hard who wouldn''t run when a giant anaconda chased her, of course I'd run but what would I be doing at a place crawling with anacondas in the first place?

Stay well and enjoy your day