Soul Dose

These days haven't been kind to me, I'm very sick, I'm nose bleeding a lot and I'm swollen like a cake baking in the oven (not those burnt crusty ugly can't be eaten cakes, I look like the sponge cake... Hey I have to be kind to myself). I don't like feeling like this or looking like this, truly on these days I find myself thinking a lot and I know too much thinking is never good.

I started thinking about the things I've missed out on and that reminder me of "THE PLAN", I had a plan you know, when I was in high school I made a life plan, I drew it up and was set on following down to the last detail. Maybe I was naive, maybe I was bored but at the time my list looked like a great idea but life had other plans for me.

I didn't put down things like BE THE FIRST SOUTH AFRICAN WOMAN PRESIDENT or FLY TO THE MOON, those weren't my ambitions, mine were a little lower and much less extreme but they were mine and I couldn't do them.... OK let's take a look at them.

- I wanted to be a CA when I turned 24 yrs old (I'm now 25, guess that goal is gone for good)

- I wanted to be married by now with 2 kids (this one wasn't really up to me but it was on the list)

- I wanted to buy my parents a house last year (another one down the drain)

- I wanted to work for Deloitte (Ah I think I'm gonna cry)

- I wanted to drive a Z3 (It was hot back then, what's hot nowadays?)

Maybe I should make a new plan, a realistic but still great plan and hopefully this time it won't sail away on a paper boat while I stand on the shore waving bye bye with a sad look on my face.... A new plan is a must and I'm gonna start working on it.

I have exams starting on the 28th October, hopefully I'll feel good enough to start sturdying soon.

Cheers!!!