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The Point

Posted on November 1, 2009 at 7:39 PM

I started this website so I can talk about how I got here, in I went from one day being a university Bcompt student to waking up in bed unable to move 6yrs later. As you know there's a lot I myself don't know, a lot I can't remember because of the amnesia and this isn't just about writing about how I got here, it's also about finding out along the way from people around me. I'm currently trying to persuade my father to buy me a scanner so I can write the words and post pictures that go with them. My family has been taking pictures since this started but unfortunately almost all of them are printouts and will have to be scanned into the computer........ I'm posting this entry by phone and something tells me it won't look the way I'm writing it, girlfriend here might end up with a post that has no paragraphs, I apologize. Remember we were talking about my coming of age celebration, I'll post the pictures later but I'd like to share what happened with you a little. I'm not feeling so good right now but I promise tomorrow I'll write all about it and from now on I'll write everyday and I'll write more about my illness because I've found out a lot more... I ask too much no wonder they say it's like I swallowed a radio and a tv.

Categories: The Past.... How It All Started, Before 17 March 2004, The Present.... How I Am Now

12 Comments

Reply Silindile Ntuli

05:00 AM on November 06, 2009

Tasneem says...
Hi Silindile, This is my first visit to your blog and I'm glad i did that . Your story is very strong story which is very influencial too for others. People who take away their lives for whatever reason are silly people . You're such a strong determined girl who wants to Live Life ! Cheers for you mate!
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I'm glad you did too

. I've always thought the suicide route is saying 'okay illness you win' and I'm not ready to throw my hands up. I know there's a reason I've made it this far, I don't know the reason yet but I'm too curious to check out without trying to be here long enough to see it.
Thank you for such kind words, they're beautiful words;)

Reply Tasneem

03:48 AM on November 06, 2009

Hi Silindile, This is my first visit to your blog and I'm glad i did that . Your story is very strong story which is very influencial too for others. People who take away their lives for whatever reason are silly people . You're such a strong determined girl who wants to Live Life ! Cheers for you mate!
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Reply Silindile Ntuli

12:28 AM on November 06, 2009

Luisa Doraz says...
I have had the honor of you stopping by my blog and leaving some very nice comments. For that, I thank you! I hope my crazy ways bring you much laughter! I will be by to support your journey and help you smile along the way.

Hey Doraz Oh yeah your blog is so funny and full of life I find myself going back for more even before the day is done, thanks for the laughs... And thank you for visiting me here;) Stay crazy, lol

Reply Luisa Doraz

05:37 PM on November 04, 2009

I have had the honor of you stopping by my blog and leaving some very nice comments. For that, I thank you! I hope my crazy ways bring you much laughter! I will be by to support your journey and help you smile along the way.

Reply Silindile Ntuli

04:22 PM on November 04, 2009

Moms sanity is making a comeback says...
I just wanted to say you have an incredible story to tell. hang in there. You have many people praying for your recovery.

http://regainingmysanity.blogspot.com/

Thanks you very much and I will keep believing.. Thanks for stopping by.

Reply Silindile Ntuli

04:12 PM on November 04, 2009

Cocorue says...
Hey, thanks for your comment on our blog and YES a chi would be great depending on whether you have the time , patience and temperament to handle one.

If you have family who can help you take care of her/him, I know you will derive tons of pleasure from owning one.

My Coco is very fragile as she's only 3lbs and she's had 2 ops for her luxated patellas ( displaced knee caps - very common for this breed) and a torn ligament - NO jumping from beds, sofas etc etc )

I just read your story and my heart goes out to you girl - I looove your spirit and I wish you all the best. Do visit BlissBait ( just saw you there ) and Doraz and PurpleHatter as they'll bring you sunshine and happiness daily

I KNOW I need mine,
cheers and chikisses

Ahh no sorry to hear about coco but she's awfully cute still... I'm gonna try to convince my family to let me get one, I've wanted one for some time now and because I won't be able to do the taking care of I need them to volunteer. So now I'll start the sweet face begging;)

Thanks for stopping by and spreading some chi love. I do love the blogs you mentioned.... Keep well

Reply Silindile Ntuli

04:05 PM on November 04, 2009

Mel says...
Silly girl......the format doesn't matter. (If I say that then my formatting doesn't matter either.....which would be good cuz I suck at formatting!)
What matters for me is that I get those things out of my head that try to pull me under, to persuade me of what's NOT true in life. But I write mostly for me....and on occasion for others. So if things don't make sense to the world who visits me, that would be why.
Earlier you wrote about not going it alone and the need to say some things--in that sense we're a lot alike, I'm a 'deep end of the pool swimmer'. Toss me in and I'll figure out how to make it work--just don't ask me how I FEEL about it or what my thinking is.
If I have a place to put it, I can move on......and I can move on in a way that's energized and filled with a different light. (I hope you get what I mean.......)

You do what you need to do for you.
The rest of us will be rooting you on and sending healing, peacefilled thoughts to you.....and your family who loves you well.

*Hugs!*

Ha ha ha yeah Mel I do act all fussy and silly sometimes, looks like we both struggle with formating and numbers:-D
Writing is so liberating and therapeutic, once I've writen it I've dealt with it. When it comes to sitting down and talking about how I feel ah you've lost me.
Thank you for your kind words, you know your comments are uplifting and funny sometimes!

Reply Silindile Ntuli

04:00 PM on November 04, 2009

Tony says...
Hi there & thanks for visiting my blog. You are certainly having a rough journey through life. I couldn't imagine how hard it must be for you to cope with what you are going through. I hope you find the strength to work through this. kind regards
Tony in Tasmania
http://oldfartsblog.wordpress.com

Hi Tony, needless to say your blog name intrigued me and the blog itself didn't disappoint, expect me back a lot more often;)
Thanks for popping in here and yes this journey isn't easy, but when I decided to call it a journey into healing I believe that day I won half the battle just by saying or rather writing those words... Thank you for your kind words!

Reply Cocorue

11:22 PM on November 03, 2009

Hey, thanks for your comment on our blog and YES a chi would be great depending on whether you have the time , patience and temperament to handle one.

If you have family who can help you take care of her/him, I know you will derive tons of pleasure from owning one.

My Coco is very fragile as she's only 3lbs and she's had 2 ops for her luxated patellas ( displaced knee caps - very common for this breed) and a torn ligament - NO jumping from beds, sofas etc etc )

I just read your story and my heart goes out to you girl - I looove your spirit and I wish you all the best. Do visit BlissBait ( just saw you there ) and Doraz and PurpleHatter as they'll bring you sunshine and happiness daily

I KNOW I need mine,
cheers and chikisses

Reply Moms sanity is making a comeback

03:51 PM on November 03, 2009

I just wanted to say you have an incredible story to tell. hang in there. You have many people praying for your recovery.

http://regainingmysanity.blogspot.com/

Reply Mel

09:12 AM on November 03, 2009

Silly girl......the format doesn't matter. (If I say that then my formatting doesn't matter either.....which would be good cuz I suck at formatting!)
What matters for me is that I get those things out of my head that try to pull me under, to persuade me of what's NOT true in life. But I write mostly for me....and on occasion for others. So if things don't make sense to the world who visits me, that would be why.
Earlier you wrote about not going it alone and the need to say some things--in that sense we're a lot alike, I'm a 'deep end of the pool swimmer'. Toss me in and I'll figure out how to make it work--just don't ask me how I FEEL about it or what my thinking is.
If I have a place to put it, I can move on......and I can move on in a way that's energized and filled with a different light. (I hope you get what I mean.......)

You do what you need to do for you.
The rest of us will be rooting you on and sending healing, peacefilled thoughts to you.....and your family who loves you well.

*Hugs!*

Reply Tony

02:31 PM on November 02, 2009

Hi there & thanks for visiting my blog. You are certainly having a rough journey through life. I couldn't imagine how hard it must be for you to cope with what you are going through. I hope you find the strength to work through this. kind regards
Tony in Tasmania
http://oldfartsblog.wordpress.com