Soul Dose

So why did I say Soul Dose? It'd be so cool right now to come up with an explanation so brilliant it'd knock Einsteins socks right off, along with his little boots but in this case Einstein wit\ll have to hang on to his feet snuggles because the explanation in anything but brilliant.

I was in my room thinking and somewhere between being angry at my brother (a pain in the behind) and falling flat on my face from my bed I realized something, my soul was broken and I needed to fix it, try to fix it daily and not give up till I feel like the person I knew I was meant to feel like.

What had broken my soul you ask? Being sick of course. It had changed me and made me who it wanted me to be. I thought I was in charge but no I was my illness's bitch (excuse the language, I've been watching too much Samantha on The And The City DVD ). I love her.

All this happened back in April right after my first waking up........ I think you get me now, you know how you take medication for an illness. I decided to name this site soul dose because that day I decided to take medication for my soul. I decided to find out what happened to me, to find out how it happened to me, to cry when I ffelt like it, hide when I couldn't deal, scream when my voice came back, love like never before, laugh and sing and daily medicate my soul with the medicine of life.

My journey is hard especially these days but I'll write that on a new post now now.