Soul Dose

I'm tired, I'm so tired and I feel like a thousand bulls were playing tag on my body and running around on it

But I'm just glad my phone allowed me to post today, I wrote the first few words and saved, what do you know it worked. So now I'm back to write what's been going on inside my brain

I hate feeling like this, being too sick to even spend time with people but there's nothing I can do. I have this guy friend and he's the one person outside my family who has been by my side from day one, he's a true angel and my very own hero and if I talked about him I'd have to make his own post because he's one hell of a friend.. Anyways I asked him 'Do you think I'll ever fully recover and his answer was 'Sure Of course yes' or something like that and it made me think.

Here was this person looking at me, seeing the pain I was in yet his belief was unchanged, maybe if you're in my situation you need people like him around you, people who will not see a sick person in front of them but people who'll always see a recovering person.

I've had some very unpleasant couple of days and I'm still in the middle of unpleasantness (That's not a word is it?) But what I love about my people is that they never feel sorry for me or treat me like an invalid, yes they look after me but to them I'm just Silindile or Sli as I'm called. They see how ill I am but because I handle it they also handle it, together we kick this illnesses butt and will keep doing it...... I hope I can remember how I did this post on this phone, maybe I'll post daily if I do.

As for my update here it is: The headache is normalizing back to what it's always like.. The nose bleeds are under control.. My leg spasms haven't been smacking me square in the face for the past two days and it's a relief, I hate being hit by my knee in the middle of my face but now that I write it down it's funny.. I'm able to drink water again after a 2 week difficulty.. I saw a doctor about the flashy thing in my eyes and he'll be giving me new glasses.. I made an EEG appointment but had to cancel when I heard how expensive it is, will make it again after my father gets his December work bonus. I feel guilty taking his bonus I really do.. I've spoken to my doctor about getting more allergy tests and he said he'll try to get in touch with Aurora Hospital, apparently they're the best and I googled them...... That's my update, hopefully I'll be feeling even better tomorrow and might come back to the website and maybe even chat.

Thank you so much for your support and kind words, I read them and my heart smiles because they're so sweet and I feel even more blessed. Thank you all very very much.