Soul Dose

Hello Good People, long time no typing I know but wow I've had some very hard days and I'm still buried head deep in them wondering when I'll be able to get my head out of the mud and inhale some fresh and not to mention refreshing air.............. My daily life has gotten a lot worse and now to put a cherry on top I might be going blind. What is she talking about you wonder? My friends let me tell you about my last few weeks, pardon me if I don't write it all on this post, once my eyes get tired I have to close them and then rest them under my big dark shades, Ha ha ha.

So anyways I was minding my own business in my bed when it happened, I looked down and saw I was covered in blood and not just blood, clots even, it was from my nose. I calmly took my tapper and banged the night stand so gran could come help me out (That's how I call for help since speaking is a thing of the past for me). Gran came and that's the last thing I saw...... I woke up a few hours later with a killer headache and a spinning head, my stomach looked like I was pregnant with triplets and the clicking irritation sound in my ears was maybe 5 times louder, I was not doing good and pissed off about it, especially since it was Christmas time.

After a visit to the doctor I slept, only to get worse with every hour. I fell from my bed more times than I've ever fell before and my shakes are now so constant and so severe they yank me and bang me like a rag doll, I have no energy, even my skin hurts.... And my eyes well my friends my eyes are now beginning to fail all together. They've troubled me for years and the flashy thing developed in November I think but now I can barely see, spectacles do little and mine are broken at the moment, lol.

I can still see a little and I have some good hours like right now, so I grabbed this opportunity to blog and visit other blogs, wow I can't wait.

The bad news is my grandmother who also happens to be the person looking after me is very very sick, her blood pressure is 183, her heartbeat is faint, her face is swollen, her lungs are drowning in water (whatever that means) so she was told to sleep and take it easy or she'll have a heart attack or stroke. She's the rock of this family and when she's sick it shakes us all but I believe she'll recover after enough rest and medication, luckily so does she.

BUT life hasn't been all doom and gloom, there have been some good things... Christmas for my family was good, though for me it wasn't a good day.. On New Year's they had lots of fun screaming and doing firecrackers and braaing meat it was good.

As for Mr Man we are getting even closer, I thought people couldn't get any more closer than we already were but I've been proved wrong... The question of whether or not we're together is one I get more often than how are you doing today and those who never ask the question claim to know we're together and have been since the 90s................ But to answer it honestly I'm not sure where we stand, what I''m sure of is I enjoy every second with him.

That's all for today, I hope to get a chance to blog again tomorrow.

I hope you all entered this year with a bang and I wish you only the best for the rest of it and all the other years after this one, may all your dreams and wishes come true.

                                                     Bye and Stay Beautiful...!!!