Soul Dose

As you know my left side is totally paralyzed now I decided to find out was the paralysis a quick thing or an overtime thing, did we (my family and I) try to stop it and at what point did I loose control over my neck and had to be supported....... As for my speech it barely comes back and barely sound like words but then goes goes for months.

Mom said it was 2004 and I was already sick and walking slow with a cane and a wall sometimes but I was walking. Then one day we watched tv and I felt something moving down my left arm (I've written about this part before). I screamed thinking it was a spider but nope it was blood coming from my elbow like someone had open a little blood tap there. I felt no pain and when we finally got to the doctor he was just as confused because there was no cut or puncher, my elbow had no way of getting out that blood but it was doing it and continued for days.

After that my elbow got sensitive to everything and I had to wear a bandage. I still wear a bandage and from time to time it bleeds again for hours

Before we knew it my hand started folding in and the doctor we saw suggested I hold some little ball while I still can and he did some therapy on it but a few days later my hand was completely clenched and surprisingly, my whole leg was just as stiff and painful.

Then one afternoon I was with my mom, sister and brother when a bizarre but head spinning painful thing happened. I was on my bed standing when I fainted as usual. After they helped me out I looked at my shoulder and it was separate from my arm. The bones were separated by a big big space and if it weren't for the skin I wouldn't have looked.

The doctor said it's caused by my spasms and when I went to the doctor who specializes in this kind of stuff he said the same thing. So now my family has to push my arm back each time it gets loose, they just follow the crying voice.

I decided to write this post because we'll soon start physical therapy on the left side, some parts like the arm are really painful but I wanna get out of this bed or at least I wanna fail trying, so I gotta be a big girl and do thin...!!!