Soul Dose

Welcome to Souldose, a place where you can read poems and my daily blog. You can see pictures and videos of my journey into healing... It is a step by step journey into reclaiming my life after 6 years of being bed bound and waking up one morning with amnesia... What you read and see here is all true.

That's me right there in the corner, a South African girl, some might call me a broken hearted girl, some might say I'm in denial and hiding my true feelings, some might call me crazy, to some I might even be a ticking time bomb just waiting to explode... What do I say about myself? Well I am a lot of things, different days bring different feelings, some days I wanna scream, the next I might wanna smash everything in sight, the next I'd feel like pulling the covers over my head and hiding from the world. That is called being hurt and being sick, trying to come to terms with spending every single day confined to this bed listening to my own thought while every part of my body screams with pain.

But other days I wake up and throw away the covers, I ask for help to get cleaned up, I wear my best clothes and I sing at the top of my voice (if my voice is kind to me those days), I scream and celebrate my life, I celebrate the number of breaths I take because as someone who usually has trouble breathing, every single breath is priceless.

One thing I don't do anymore is punish those around me (trust me I used to), I hide my bad moods and I and smile and show them I am happy, what they have done for me has earned them that much.

Slowly, daily, I know my heart will heal, I know the illness will fade, the body will recover and the paralysis will have no room in my life.

This is my journey into healing.

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I write poetry to help me get everything out of my head, it helps me tap into my true thoughts and it is easier because I get to release myself and by the time I write the last sentence whatever was bothering me is down on paper, my mind is clearer, tears have flowed if need be and I have me a great poem.

Sometimes I write poems about family, life in general and about love, it's a great platform to lose myself and say whats in my heart....Go To Poetry

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I looked so angelic..

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